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[Nov. 24th, 2004|04:03 pm] |
sometimes i feel that people find me intellectually inferior and emotionally naive. i abhor the condescending nature people and regret, most of all, that i ever let anyone really get to me. (on the contrary, there are many people i find incredibly empowering.)
[note to self: don't let people get to me. follow own advice.]
i understand the self-destructive tendencies of myself as well as other humans (our desires and our addictions). now i must apply what i know is best for me (this has always been the hardest part!)
healthy activity for the mind
writing
reading
meditation
walks and bike rides (dad threw my bike away, so no bike)
conversation with lovely people
natural methods of releasing endorphins
healthy food and hot tea
productivity and satisfying projects
not hating anyone/thing (i always say, hate makes the heart heavy)
thinking good thoughts
music
reading about eastern philosophy, esp buddhism
unhealthy
- mind-numbing or unnecessary commodities (come on, they can never really fill the void)
- stress, anxiety and bad thoughts
- being sucked in and vulnerable to the addictive nature of things like tv, computer, shopping, soda, etc (BAD! i have most of these things under control)
- impulsive eating (DISTRACTION!)
- trying to justify things in my head as an easy way out
- thinking about money (brings a slew of other anxieties)
- developing bad habits and addictions (drugs, cigs, alcohol, etc. dependencies are awful. bad habits are easy to acquire and hard to shake. i do not engage in any of the things listed here)
- hating
- fits of laziness
healthy environments for the mind
the natural world, NATURE! weeeeeeeee!
the presence of empowering, thoughtful, strong, light-hearted and compassionate people
new places, especially exploration with friends
unhealthy
- home life (high-stress, high-anxiety...always screaming)
- school (fettering, confining, stressful)
- being around people who make me feel CRAPPY
when i follow my own advice i feel strong, free and capable of anything. it's good for the human spirit.
[not to self: talk to strangers. follow own advice.] |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|11:20 pm] |
feminist group screening of the film Iron Jawed Angels at my house tomorrow (Tuesday) at 6pm
perhaps brownies provided by robert! bring $1-2 for Amnesty International membership
Next week: zine workshop!?
as always, open to all |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|10:02 pm] |
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| | i am a faulty person | ] |
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| | the microphones - instrumental (17) | ] |
I am a faulty person
A writer is afraid of hir own mortality
Words are vessels
Eternalizing ceaseless thoughts
To sedimentary rock
(sand spreads thin, naked in the EXPANSE
And stone does not dissolve...at least not as easily)
A moment cannot be reduced to words!
Oh provincial singular perception
Receptive of worlds only to turn them to stone |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 21st, 2004|12:12 pm] |
Civic Arousal by Ralph Nader should be required reading for everyone--conservatives, liberals, radicals and especially those who are all theory and no action ("To know and not to do is not to know"). Honestly, this little book/pamphlet really inspired me and struck me on a very personal level. Ralph Nader is a true progressive (and not just that guy who steals votes from the democrats, he has changed many things).
and for those of you who are tired of hearing me talk, think i'm too politically-minded and should shut up and watch TV, you should know my political conscience is an honest, visceral and compassionate concern for people.
The Motorcycle Diaries has also inspired me. I've seen the film twice and got the book yesterday. it's about pre-revolutionary "Che" Guevara, his early travels and what essentially shaped him politically. i was genuinely moved by the story (there were so many powerful scenes and poignant lines). also a beautiful performance by Gael Garcia Bernal (amores perros, y tu mama tambien), one of my favorite actors
"so much injustice" |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 21st, 2004|12:44 am] |
Yakamochi
[These] meetings in dreams,
How sad they are!
When, waking up startled
One gropes about,--
And there is no contact to the hand. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 10th, 2004|06:12 pm] |
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HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST FRIEND CRYSTAL ROSA!!!!!!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 3rd, 2004|05:01 pm] |
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change is still within our grasp. it's up to you now. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 30th, 2004|09:48 pm] |
i'm volunteering for Music For America tomorrow at the Social in Orlando. Blood Brothers, Against Me! and True North will be playing. Come by and talk ISSUES!
VOTE BETTY CASTOR FOR SENATE!!! she will be the first democratic, female senator in florida! http://www.bettynet.com/ |
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| woolf, chomsky and i are actually the same person |
[Oct. 28th, 2004|09:41 pm] |
i always find interesting parallels between the the words of those i read and words and thoughts of myself. i think it's called relating and it makes me feel good...connected
these recent examples are uncanny! (i wrote these things before i started both books...i don't nearly compare to either)
example 1
Jackie Wang, Stuck Inside Your Head zine/letter to Austin
sometimes i forget that life, in its most primitive form, existed without everything around me. that all my anxieties are just constructs. greed, materialism and the prospect of failing just diverts from the true measure of a fruitful life(...)
the world i live in is an artificial one and sometimes i am staring out a car window into and empty parking and fluorescent street-lights, overcome with the feeling that there is more to life than this...that i may never be on the other side of the window if i don't risk everything.
Noam Chomsky, Media Control
They [the population] ought to be sitting alone in front of the TV and having drilled into their heads the message, which says, the only value in life is to have more commodities or live like that rich middle class family you're watching and to have nice values like harmony and Americanism. That's all there is in life. You may think in your own head that there's got to be something more in life than this(...)
[Chomsky is talking about how the media emphasizes commodity to divert people from thinking, basically. he read my mind]
example 2 (similar imagery of fading)
Jackie Wang, excerpt from personal writing
(...)
and my thoughts dissolve
like a red balloon into the abyssal blue sky
(children's eyes fixate
where do balloons go?
where do thoughts go?)
Virginia Woolf, Mrs. Dalloway
There was nobody. Her words faded. So a rocket fades. |
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| affinity with the universe |
[Oct. 25th, 2004|09:11 pm] |
I hated confronting the morning. I awoke lazily... turning over and over again. I harnessed every whim in my body just to get out of bed. I stared blankly for a few moments, rubbed my eyes before I processed that the motions had begun.
I was mystified by a beautiful image I saw through a car window. It was a collaboration of many things but essentially the sun, setting and sulky morning. I doubt every particle could be reassembled in such harmony. I doubt such a sight could every be reproduced. I melted for a few moments before my anxieties resurfaced (along with the weight of existing). I wished my eyes were cameras.
I wanted to be many things today. I wanted to remember many thoughts. I wanted to know many things and I wanted to do many things. I feel small when I stand in libraries. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 19th, 2004|03:35 pm] |
thanks to:
all the people who came and protested, the nice lady for the water, the hippie who has been protesting for 30 years, the mothers who were fired up, the youth that cares, the guy with the megaphone yelling facts, the lady whose boyfriend died in the war, the guy starting chants, the reporters who listened to us, all of those who united, acknowledged their rights and realized passivity is dangerous
NO thanks to:
the slews of extreme ageists, the people yelling "fagot lovers" and other homophobic remarks, the people yelling "baby killers" (and when i said abortion was legal under bush, could say no more), the people regurgitating commercials, the people making fun of our appearance, the RACISTS, those who didn't care about the poor, those who had the "bomb them all!" mentality and don't care about civilians, those who can't distinguish between iraq and afghanistan, the people who were dumbfounded when i asked them to justify their statements, the people derogatorily yelling "what are you, public teachers?", the people who called us american haters and communists (or maybe thank you), the narrow-minded nationalists, the people who criticized kerry's war record, the people who yelled childish slander (wait...thank you for making an idiot out of yourself), the people who yelled "go home" (noelle replied, "i am home. america is my home"), the people yelling things that made absolutely no sense (i.e. "go drink some koolaid!")
the republicans didn't let reva, jocine and another woman in. all had tickets. they denied them enterance because they were standing with the protesters. said they didn't look "happy enough" |
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[Oct. 18th, 2004|11:51 am] |
PROTEST BUSH TOMORROW
SIMS PARK, NEW PORT RICHEY
NOONISH BUT GET THERE EARLY!!!!!
SPREAD THE WORD
unelected president bush is coming to fucking NPR florida. let him know he is not welcome. DISGUSTED? quick! mobilize, cut class, make signs and banners... get fired up!! go go go!!!! feel the fury! make fliers!! let yourself be heard
http://sptimes.com/2004/10/16/Decision2004/Sims_Park_spruces_up_.shtml |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 13th, 2004|01:17 am] |
now that i have the backing of a national organization
look for feminist group in affiliation with the Feminist Majority Leadership Alliances
http://feministcampus.org/ |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 9th, 2004|02:10 am] |
Stuck Inside Your Head issue 2 > 32 half pages > $1-$3 post paid (or trade)</b>
Stuck Inside Your Head is my train-of-thought personal zine. It includes the following: pointilism drawings, cut and paste art, 11 memories from summer, autobiographical short stories and essays, paper inserts, photographs, a watercolor painting, an interactive questionnaire and the usual ramblings. This issue is much more cohesive, but still very surreal and dreamy.
Trade items:
+ A mixtape
+ A letter
+ A poem, drawing or comic
+ A small donation of 1-3 dollars
+ A picture or two
+ Your zine
Limited copies of this zine will be available Saturday (today) at Neptune Lounge during the show with Shed For You, Through the Eyes of the Dead, Silence After Tragedy, Bodies In the Gears, Beauty in Chaos, and Take These Eyes
Order
To order a copy you can mail your trade (get in touch for address), or make a donation via paypal to wangluciaa@msn.com
If you can't manage that and would still like a copy, get in touch :) |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 7th, 2004|09:19 pm] |
i'm not going to go into my personal life right now because, well, it is a mess.
however, anyone who has free access to a copy machine, let me now. maybe your family owns a business? maybe you have one at your job? give me a head up. i'm looking to print my zine. i'm also looking for an old fashion typewriter. |
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| the night after the hurricane, everything changed |
[Sep. 29th, 2004|04:12 am] |
i'm sure news is beginning to circulate about a certain incident that will undoubtedly tear my family apart.
i'm am a little less distraught now that i know that my older brother is alive, after hearing that a certain group who visited my house (and threw cement blocks at my brother's car) the night of the incident had probably killed him. i don't know what is going to happen, i just know that our family will never be the same.
i am many things. i am disgusted. i am sad. i am angry.
i loathe all that has caused this nightmare-- guns, violence, drugs, power trips, greed, and games played with delicate lives.
happy 18th birthday randy, enjoy your coming of adulthood in a jail cell. i just hope you didn't throw your life away. |
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| feminist resources |
[Sep. 24th, 2004|01:42 am] |
i have spent the last few hours researching feminist organizations, but now i am being kicked off the internet. here are some links to my personal resouces and brief descriptions i wrote up. there are other resources available that are relevent to different people, plus tons of zines
i also plan on writing an article exposing the sex slave trade. it's really disturbing.
National Women’s History Project
Recognizes historical women, provides info, educational materials and programs
http://www.nwhp.org
About-face
Battles image and media representation of women. Strives to produce positive self-esteem among women
http://about-face.org/
Equal Rights Amendment
It is still lawful for laws to be made based on gender (there are some really absurd ones too)
http://equalrightsamendment.org/
Ms. Foundation
National, multi-issue women’s fund
http://www.ms.foundation.org/
National Organization for Women
Largest organization of feminist activists
http://www.now.org/
Women Philanthropy
Female-empowering org that offers grants
http://www.womenphil.org
Women’s e-news
Alt-media for women’s coverage
http://www.womensenews.org
Girl Source
provides paid job and leadership opportunities to girls, ages 14-18, from low-income families
http://girlsource.org/
Aviva
International women’s news
http://www.aviva.org/
Girl Inc.
Organization dedicated to inspiring girls 6-18 to be strong, smart and bold
http://www.girlsinc.org
Third Wave Foundation
Empowers young females (third wavers), offers grants
http://www.thirdwavefoundation.org/
Feminist.com
Comprehensive source for all things feminist.
http://www.feminist.com/
Take Back the News
A network to share and expose sexual violence
http://www.takebackthenews.net/
Redstockings
women’s liberation studies archive (Gainesville, FL)
http://www.afn.org/~redstock/
Kill Rock Stars
Punk rock chicas and riot grrrls
http://www.killrockstars.com
Guerrilla Girls
Anonymous collective of feminist infiltrating worlds of art, film and culture. Shocking and humorous!!
http://www.guerrillagirls.com |
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| kurt vonnegut |
[Sep. 14th, 2004|02:02 am] |
this was very satisfying to read after having suffered through my bipolar mother's violent fits of rage (toward me). it was kind of sad and ironic...
"One last question," I begged. "To what do you attribute your incredible productivity?"
Isaac Asimov replied with but a single word: "Escape." And then he appended a famous statement by the similarly prolific French writer Jean-Paul Satre:
"Hell is other people." |
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